woot!

i went for my review today. and lemme just tell you, nothing boosts your entire soul like someone telling you how great a job you do. and how you're a good leader and they feel lucky to have you. its almost like all the struggling that you do (both outwardly and inwardly) and all the work, energy, and effort that you put in has finally paid off. and finally made a difference. now granted im not curing anything and flowers can only go but so far but its nice to be recognized. and appreciated. man, im gonna cry just typing this. i feel like im on the right track. that im actually doing something beneficial for my life. and like the decisions that ive made in the past are leading me to the right future. i just want people to understand how deep this goes. its taken me almost two years for me to realize how great i am again.

ha, i definitely didnt mean to get so... emotional.

while we were going over miscellaneous things in my review they did tell me that i will now be in charge solely of the website. and ive got to update it on a bi weekly basis. im so excited! but realize that all my spare time now is gonna have to be devoted to doing it. good bye what little social life i did have! haha. i swear im not a workaholic... yet.

i met a man too. but that really has nothing to do with anything. or, i met a friend. someone who i can talk to and who understands me. without all the other emotional or physical attachment. loves it.